crying week

hello..it's weekend again. and guess what i've been doing today??

CRY!! cry!! CRY!!

duduk, diri, kemas baju, kemas bilik, mse solat, lepas solat, bce al Quran pn dh tersedu2. mase mama call td saye buat suare tabah..takot termelalak plak.saye jarang nangis dpn family.sebab saye gagah.the last time saye melalak dpn family pn maybe mase saye form5..mase arwah Tok Tan saye meninggal.mase makan pn rse sok sek sok sek.sampai Mat piq sound aku.terus senyap lepas tu.soksek2 seme hilang.malu pnye pasal..huhu..so..

it has been an emotional week thow. y?

• my cousin syahir got 10A1 for his SPM..i cried because he now holds the family trophy. he had beat my score..dlu i dpt 8A 1B je. (bkn seme A1 pon!)..ahaha..itu menangis bahagia.saye sayang adik kak long saye nih.
• smlm (Jumaat) patutnye patient saye yg bertuah yaitu DEDDY THERA (amek kau siap capital lg.betape bertuahnye die) tidak dtg appoinment gigi beliau.sampai hati kan.saye mmg rase nk menangis mse kt klinik tu.(saye menangis la gak.tp tarik nafas dlm2,air mata tak jadi nk jatuh) dh la call tak dpt.die switch off hp die. root canal treatment ye kawan2.dhla mmerlukan mase yg lame utk rawat gigi yg sebegitu ditambah dgn kondisi kite yg masih dlm educational environment and sentiase kene bolak balik tunjuk kat dosen. saye memerlukan commitment yg luar biase encik Thera. kalau tak, no Ambon trip for u la! *kan dh emo* disebabkan kamu, saye tidak menghadiri kelas petang.kenapa?sbb tka de mood.hanyut dh mood tu dgn perasaan ku terhadap mu!
• selain itu, saye mendapat tau bahwa hp kawan saye Malyanah kne hanyut banjir pastu seperti biase la rosak! moge2 dpt repair kan cik Mal.sian awk.dhla hp baru.agaknye tu petande nk soh awk beli blackberry lak kot?? *looking on the bright side*
• a bird told me about something-something regarding something-something.makes me think of it and cried all day.
• boyfie been busy with his 2nd wife.aka my rival aka madu gue. siap kau vroom, kalau pasni wat hal lg!! mmg aku nk smunyikkan kau jauh2. biarlah kene naek beca pn. *idea naek beca bukan idea saye.sape nk tanggungjawab skrg?*
• i offended an old friend. i admit, i was wrong. but i wasnt being judgemental dear.forgive me!
• i cried because i feel like my relationship is falling apart.FULLSTOP
• i cried because i cant stop listening to Rihanna's song- cry
• i cried because i can hardly remember the last time he said i love you. just thinking of it makes my heart break.*bkn td dh fullstop ke?*
• i'll cry if u ask me why am i crying.so dont ask
• i cried because i'm homesick
• i cried because i'm afraid i made a mistake for my fyp
• i cried because i hate that sumone who had taken away my happiness years ago.bile la ko nk blah dr idop aku?
• tak tau dh ape lg reason aku melalak sakan hrni

so selamat berhujung minggu kawan2.doakan semua tentang hidup saye pulih kembali dan segalanya berjalan lancar utk saye sem ni.

mama, kalau bace entry ni, doakanlah anak mu ini sentiasa dlm kesejahteraan ye ma..sbb doa ibu tu yg paling mustajab utk anak2 nye..

k, this entry stops here.