SATURDAY!

it's a Saturday!!! the exam's are over, eyh no, there's one last paper coming up next week..but, i dont give a damn about it for the moment..i just wish i could indulge myself into the joy of holiday..but guess what, i failed..i did'nt nail it..all i did today was, i woke up quite early, (which is around 7.30) but i didnt get off from my bed.. i kept twisting and turning until i fell asleep again,woke up, text a few msgs (very2 emo msgs), feeling sad and lonely thinking how on earth i could have deserve what i'm going thru rite now..i kept thinking until i fell asleep again..the next time i woke up, it was already afternoon (12.05pm to be exact) this time i sat on my bed, kicking in some nerves and then i got up and do my room..arranged a few things, flip over some notes, threw away things i dont wanna keep...i still have this very sad feeling deep down, i feel so empty, i've tried making myself busy but the feeling itself,it kept haunting me..it's like trying to pull me down to the sea bed..it's making my life misery..i am out of the ordinary now that's for sure..

this one song really tears my heart apart..

Remember the first day when I saw your face
Remember the first day when you smiled at me
You stepped to me and then you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
Remember the first day when you called my house
Remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide
and we both had a beautiful night


The way we held each others hand,
the way we talked, the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one
ohhhhhh,

I know that he loves me cause told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause its me he trust
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it so


Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
Remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we've haven't argued since
Remember the first day we stopped playing games
Remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each other's hands,
the way we talked, the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right there and then that you were the one

I know that he loves cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause it's obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trust
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it so

I'm so happy, so happy that your in my my life
and baby now that your apart of me
you've showed me
showed me the true meaning of love(the true meaning of love)
and I know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause it's obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trust
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it so

it's so freaking meaningful to me, alas, it meant nothing to the other person...where is ur heart,man?

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

am i a professional girlfriend??? really???honestly???

nad, i miss u!